And What the Fuck!!

Bad Dreams...When will the result be out?
OMG...that is gigging me...ugh...
For all the hardwork and pure laziness...it's too late to do anything to make a difference.
What I can do now is to wait and perhaps....pray?LMAO

Noob...Noob...
Diablo 2 Noob...
Craziness...
LOL

Do sick

Labels: sickness

-Justify Do- .
4:43 PM


Fatty Acid

-Last month of the year and 2006 will soon be history-

OMG, living a sedantary life and times and days are forgotten. The outside world seems strange and unwelcoming. Animals are hibernating due to the weather; it's plain cold here. So do we, as human, part of animal, I suppose, are hibernating and refraining ourselves from the outside world.

Strangely enough, the warmth provided by the thermocouple is so comfortable that I become kind of addicted to it. Or is it because of her? Laziness is killing people!

Got nothing to do and play games everyday, eating and eating and sleeping and sleeping AND


GETTING FAT!

-Justify Do- .
2:45 AM


The End of It.

So I finally graduated from Bukit Merah Secondary School.

It's been a longgg....longgg...time...three and a half years painstakingly learning english which I mastered finally and going through a long journey. In this entry, I just wanted to reflect back all the experiences I have encountered, be it educational ones, bad ones or just there without having any effects on my life.

2003:
This is the first year I got out from my indigenous country to further my education. Singapore, a country which is famous for her chicken rice, Singlish, 'kiasu' people, cleanliness and its country best security. To admit, living in Singapore is really enjoyable and I love to reside there. Looking back, I was to further my studies in Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur, however, my mother's acquaintance, a person whom I detest in some ways for her selfishness, conservativeness, rudeness, too many for me to mention here, offered her place for me to stay.
I was plain hated to stay at her house. She is talkative and has a very bad temper. She even insult me when I took chinese as a second language for she thought that I couldn't cope with it...and at the end I got a C6 for it..haha..(of course there is an element of luck back there, but you know...)
Anyway, I was studying everyday, learning english, math and science. There was no day without studying. Luckily, I was so highly motivated at that time(unlike now), I memorised an immense amount of vocabulary, expressions, learning grammar and sentence structure.HELLLL I tell you, my life was full of books and books. Together with my friend, Mario, we withstood the bitter journey of our lives.
We were scared of our guardian that I had to ask him to guard the lift while I made calls to schools.It was weird, of course, that she didn't like us to get into good schools. She had the assumption that we are stupid as it is that it is such a blessing if we are accepted into ordinary neighbourhood schools. Like what the fuck....

2004:
I got into Bukit Merah Secondary School and it was a nerve-wrecking experience to go into new school. I met many friends, hilarious friends whom I become extremely comfortable with them around me. The Indo Gang. They are the reasons why I didn't want to shift school by the end of this year. Of course, we have our own weaknesses. We made mistakes and we quarreled sometimes. We backstabbed, gossiped among us, but those moments are moments I will always treasure. To have mutual friends, however wrong we are.
This is the year when I topped the class. I was excruciatingly hardworking at that time. I was afraid to disappoint my parents that I despised people who do not care about their studies. I hated people who are playing while exams are around.

2005:
I got into the best class and promised myself that I would top the class again. I did ten year series everytime there were tests and I burnt midnight oil almost everyday. However, I just realised today that I had the wrong system of studying. For the first semester, I couldn't care less about other things but my studies.
However, this is the year when I made a huge decision and fought for what has been forcefully hidden after 2 years. I liberated myself from the house, The Hell, for that is what we labelled the house. She was unhappy and anger was clearly printed across her face. I stared at her with utmost satisfaction. Well, I guess that is me, a person who does not give a damn to what people think of myself. I am in favour of my own comfort and will go all the ways to get what I want.
So, I changed house and met new friends there. It wasn't such a pleasure to stay there, but who care??I didn't have any house at that time and it was a last minute decision.
By the way, my studies were suffered during this period. I was going through many problems and it was chaos back then. I was confused, perplexed, despondent, angry, hated the life so much that I wanted to end my life. Well, I am not exaggerating here, but that is what I felt at that time.

2006:[Year of jealousy and heart-pain]
My final year in BMSS and I will be graduating by the end of the year. I didn't feel any urgency for my O level though. Contradict to what I have expected. This is the big year and this is the year where fights are rampant and seem to be inevitable. I changed house again for the second time and I love the house initially. I was fighting with the guardian throughout the years and for weird reasons, I love the fights for I always won them.
This is also the year when I started to pu**, but decided to put an end to it by the end of the year for I saw no point in doing so. Also, I clubbed innumerable times and it was during my O Level. We were naughty, crazy and we didn't give a fuck to O Level. Who cares??!!! We were playing and playing, having fun, getting drunk. It was utter craziness!!
However, I was so scared as it was my last year and tried my best to study.To summarise, my O level was good enough and am still waiting for the results next year. I just hope that I get good scores.


To end, my secondary years in Singapore has been very entertaining and educating. I learnt many lessons and from my mistakes, I see life through better angles. I know what I want to be in future and to fight anything that is against my will. I am a freedom fighter and strongly believe in myself. I have my own perspectives and life.

Below are few photos during my final years:























Last MoS before leaving sg



















DoNop















DoPen














Graduation Night with the girls


















DoVi














My Final Class

-Justify Do- .
7:50 AM


Life is getting crazy

O level is merely around the corner and I screwed my practical.
Dammit..can't get the correct salt! Like what the fuck lah!

But, I can't reckon for certain...no mood to study!!!!
I've lost all the interests and hopes and am failing for most likely.
Life is really getting crazy here!!!!Clubssss everyday and smoking non-stop...
drinking vodks and other alcohol drinks!!

stressssss...

-Justify Do- .
2:42 AM


Be Gone!
Like what the Fuck larh...

And for that I have to ingest all the lies, all the mockery and all the fake plaudits. And you are a big HYPOCRITE who likes to use other people for your own personal gain. There was time when you could bluff me for I was being a naive person. But mind you that I am a strong and clever lot who has the extraordinary ability in analysing people; my power of observation is unquestionable.

I have to admit that I fell to you circle of demonic territory and I am feeling excruciatingly despondent, heart broken, solitude at the moment. But guess what, Time heals all wounds and I am of the strong view of such notion. Needless to say, it takes a long time to recuperate and because of that, you plant ampe hatred seeds deep within me. Oh, about you trying to act mature like your guru...nah, I strongly encourage you to step down coz I hate to have a disciple like you. I am a unique breed of people, I am special and different from others and you are just a piece of shit. Ok, I articulate my thought too harshly and you aren't that shitty, but you have to understand you see..that I don't like being overlooked and when I feel that one has done such a thing, then I ought to retaliate. Don't you see the big picture here?

I AM A REVENGFUL INDIVIDUAL!!

For no right reason, I feel that we are stubborn and we love arguments. I guess that's the way I am. I hate to lose and for that, arguments are always in my favour. I am a strong advocate that arguments will settle all problems, except few cases...and for that don't blame me for my rigid unshakable opinions. I have my own principle, I have my own vision and no one can ever change that!

Perhaps we have to understand one another better. Remember my favourite line, "only through better understandings and having the correct priorities in lives do we able to make the world a better place for all of us."

I have digested certain facts recently and felt that I am morally declining. You know that I am a very uptight person. Moral uprightness is my principle. Alas, you change me ever so slowly at first, like the sun rays seeping through the windows every morning, and when the KING has woken up, I already am changed. And for that, I want to distance myself for I think you are a contagious disease, you're a new kind of virus who are disynthesised and permeate into people's territories and sometimes, zone of comfort- if you like me to be spesific. That's why I have to circumspect your breeding or else....

Words are just too insufficient to describe your ugliness and if you ever read this and understand what I mean, then I can only say sorry if it hurts you.

-Justify Do- .
2:18 AM


Fuck.Dog.Shit.Ass.To.Hell.With.You.



Stress Do

-Justify Do- .
11:21 AM


The Birthday People
-I am so into perfection-

Many Birthday parties last month and this month..
People really love August I guess..lots of good luck..which I think is preposterous.
Too much superstitious people around me which make me sick..
Anyway, Vi's bday and Margareth's bday as follow:

Well..it's just us. More photos will be coming when I've received them. Anyway, 30th of August was Vi's bday and...

Margareth's bday on the 1st of September.

Happy B'day for my families (5/6 of my family members' b'day fall on the month of August), also all my friends...Peace!

-Justify Do- .
2:09 AM