I don't give a FUCK

The dispute and commotion are just so thrilling! My life gets no longer so monotonous after all. Thanks to my agitator.

Having this "big" fight with my guardians last week and hell, it boosted up my ego and adrenaline. The feelings were just too much for words to describe. Of course, being on the side of the winner, I couldn't help myself but to infuse my heart with petals of rose. Having been sleeping on the bed of roses have definitely change me in some ways, not to mention my very ego that has been satisfied.

Never mind about the ego, but I have learnt something from this duel. (Can't tell the full story- words are too insufficient!). I learn that commitment is of paramount importance. In the world of business, especially, we have to hold our own words. Something that has been said cannot be taken back. Well, even though we have said the wrong thing, but, at least, we try to justify ourselves CORRECTLY! Not beating around the bushes, lamenting our own problems and hope someone will stick his ass on our problems. The point I want to stress is that everyone has their own problems and the magnitude of these problems is subjective. One cannot tell which problem is more troubling than the others and please, for our mother's sake, don't sell your problem as if you are having a big sale and hope it will attract everyone's attention, because, I DON'T give a SHIT to your problems. Ask me whether I want to lend my ears to you beforehand before you open your mouth!

Another thing that struck me is that sometimes, I can't even believe that I have so much capability to actually admonish and criticise someone that I suppose to put my respect onto. Well, this is something beyond my control, of course. Unexpectedly, I could just stand up for what I believe and of course this is the characteristic that has ingrained in my body. I WILL STAND for what I BELIEVE and those who try to cross my path will get if from me.

Can't write any longer...I gotta rest now. I'll be having chinese O level oral tomorrow.


-Satisfied Do-

-Justify Do- .
8:58 AM


SEXUAL CONTENT WARNING (part 1)

I notice recently that almost in every website that contains pornography flavour, there will be a "SEXUAL CONTENT WARNING", impeccably presented by the owners of the websites for that matter.

This warning is designated to tell the impressionable young minds about the rules and regulations abide them from surfing inappropriate sites. I understand that it is of astronomical importance that this warning, by all means, ought to be put up before people can actually enter the sites.


Something has struck me, however...

It is presented in the warning that, if you are under 18 or 21 (different websites, different criteria), you should leave the site without further ado. It has down to me that this warning is SHEER a waste of money, waste of time, waste of effort. I'm sure that the website owner has to spend lots of money to put up such warning. Not to mention about the effort to design the layout and construct the site. And then, for those who use a dial-up connection, it will cost them more money as they have to wait longer to enter the site, and before that they have to view this warning thingy.


Now, the issue I'm trying to put across is that, which children or underage teenagers stupid enough to leave the site because of such warning??!! Let us think for a while, if these children and teenagers have the intentions to surf such websites, are they going to leave these sites because of this harmless warning?? I will take off my hat to the society if such thing happens- sure, the society has been raising children who are not only illiterate, but also children who listen to warning signs. How Fantastic!!


But, let me put this beforehand, why do these children want to surf such websites at the first place? Because, viewing these sites containing sexual content brings about pleasure!


If these children already have the intentions to surf such websites, they are not going to give it up because of this warning, are they??

So, come back to the first issue, why people would still put up such warning, provided they know that people will ignore them instantly. (Which diligent person will read all the rules and regulations at first before they enter the site? You tell me!)


The reason I argue such matter is not to question about the credibility of putting up such warning. It is my contention that at least, people still care about protecting the young minds from being exposed to the territories they are not supposed to step into, but isn't it a good thing to think for a while that they are many things we do that are unnecessary and merely a waste. Say, the sexual content warning.


I exceedingly doubt that the owners of these websites want to protect these children. Why would they want to design such websites at the first instance? Knowing that internet is omnipresent in today's world. Many come with excuses such as education for the adults, bla bla bla... Adults do not, DO NOT, I shall stress this, perform such MAJESTIC sex style in real life...of course there are people who do, but the ratio of people do's and dont's is unimaginably different! Are we going to entertain these trivial amount of people who do's with the consequences of spoiling our young generation? The risk is just TOO ludicrous.




To be continue....







-Justify Do- .
12:10 AM


It's been quite a long time since we met one another.
The continent has separated us apart for sure...physically, I mean.
But, we will always be friends no matter what matters.

Been differs from one another is sure a way of differentiation. But, that is why we called it humanity, isn't it?

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Getting home recently and sure this place, where I grew, is definitely strange. Everything is so foreign. So does the country, per se. Having been leaving this place for a certain period has devastated my memory, of course. Not to mention about the people. Their mentality, their attitude, their mindset. Hope I can delude them all...tsk..can't be bother anyway.

Seeing the old places, the roads where I had stepped my feet onto, the shops I loved to patronise, the view I ditaste, the people I cordially invited... Hope I can adapt myself well.

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Something has bothering my mind lately. Not quite sure how to put it well. But, certainly, it keeps reverberating in my mind. Issues have been down to me, claiming itself to be justified. I can't possibly be justifying something that is unjustifiable, can I?

Living miserably at my own house, not having people I can confine with, not seeing people I want to see, really hope we can be reunited...My family has not been completely together for many years...almost a decade I think. Miss them all...miss the time when we spent time together. Hope we will get to see one another in future.


-Defining myself-

-Justify Do- .
12:44 PM


Deluding school


I couldn't move! I was seriously petrified!
My inertia is too high... I couldn't move my buff bods today and for the first time, I skipped school for no reason. SHIT!

Shit is happening lately. Those loneliness, those hatred, those hunger, those frustration, those jealousy. Just can't cope them well! ThE World is too cruel, too small, too biased!


-Mr hOrNy-

-Justify Do- .
5:34 AM


They who ain't my parents act like a ONE...


They who ain't my parents, who have no bloodline with me, have the audacity to act like a ONE. Rules are Rules and I understand that I have to follow them thoroughly, but I will show hell to you if you don't reciprocate by following my RULES.

They are merely my guardian, not even a registered one, I shall add, dare enough to stand in front of my threshold and ransack my things around. Hell must be blind shall I did nothing to Justify myself. The argument between us has been heaten up and I am reaching to my boiling point. Tolerance shall be ignored and justice will spread its wing and fly around to spread the wings of justice amongst us.

There has been a spy between us and I am trying to identify this malicious betrayer;trying to sniff around this villanious enemy that is hiding inside our blanket. I must be a good identifyer, a good detective, some would describe.


A spy has been caught!


She has been blatantly opening my drawer and checking out my things. I was burnt with anger, I must have been dipped into the zero level world. She is F**king a maid, merely a maid and dare enough to check my things around. You must be out of ur mind! Tell me, what should I do to her?(pondering a way to punish this bitch...)

Hell hath no fury like a Boi2x scorned!

She is sinful and I have to teach her a lesson. She has been acting like a boss in the house and I have to justify myself and show her who the DADDY is in this house. The host ain't no different as well. Acting around as if they are my parents and banning me from watching FUCKING PORN movie..hax...my parents allow me to watch them and this damn ppl trying to bar me. WAD THE HELL ARE YOU ALL THINKING ABOUT MAN??!! I need a space, I'm a grown-up man and dun need ur damn supervision.

Fucking pissing me off!!!

They are jealous I guess....jealous coz they don't have stock to watch these movies which are very entertaining..haha...pity u all...adults really have to be emphatised, I guess....

WARNING: Stay away from my vicinity or I shall carry out my 'execution'!!!


-Boi2x-Angry mode!

-Justify Do- .
7:56 AM


Boi2x Reflection

Looking at myself in the mirror today, and something is just slapping me. The reflection of myself is utterly simple, yet confounding. We look at ourselves in the mirror everyday, but has it come to our mind, what if the person in the mirror is not ourselves??

Thinking back my past life and I asked myself whether my life has been useful or has it been a waste? Nobody knows. Except...myself, of course.

Questions have been repeating itself in my mind lately, Who am I? Why am I here? What will I be in the next 10, 20 years? How am I going to make peace with God? Nobody knows. Not even myself.

The loneliness is killing me, the quietness is deafening my ears, the purity is blackening my vision. I couldn't figure out things clearly. I have been blinded, I have been silenced, I am speechless, I am who I am, I am not someone I want to be, How does it feel not to be born? Identity is something I'm desperately trying to grope, Vision is something I'm desperately trying to see and Mission is something I'm desperately trying to accomplish.

Looking myself at this point of time, I don't think I'm ready for the worst. I am weak, I have so many weaknesses, I feel insecure. I want to fight those who I would like to fight with, but I just lack of the courage, I just lack of the ability. I just don't have the power and the world is not a place where I could build my dreams.

Has it come to our mind, what if the world is not only the only place where there is a co-existence of species? What if there is other creatures, much better than us, out there?? Isn't it weird that the universe is such an endless horizon, yet life only exists in this tiny microscopic Earth? I wonder.........




-Justify Do- .
5:55 AM